I have been thinking about the circumstances of your upbringing, on which you lay the blame for your financial challenges. I had hoped that my working so hard for most of your life would set an example. If you want to change the way you handle money, you need to take charge and set some boundaries. Figuring out why things are the way they are never changes a thing. Concerted effort does.
SCHOOL: this semester may be your last chance. Go to classes and get through it. It doesn’t matter what you think of other people — sometimes you have to grind your teeth and accept the fact thay they’re unreasonable. Think of how you deal with you boss’s inability to communicate. There will someday be a situation where you have to work on a daily basis with soerbody you have to struggle not to hold in contempt, and you won’t be alble to say, “Oh, it’s only for a semester.” IT’s up to you to correct yourself.
MUSIC: Keep playing. Stop building. School is more important. ImmerSlo will still be there this summer. Creative energy can be channelled to productive energy.
Once you are not enrolled you will have to pay 30% of your income for rent and contribute about $200 a month for groceries. You will also have to help with utilities, not necessarily half, which run about $350 per month. Plus car upkeep, gas, etc. You will have less to spend on concerts (which I agree are an important part of life) and pleasures. “Quality of Life” expenditures will be more like dinner and a movie once a month.
FINISH SCHOOL. Put everything else on the back burner. Contact the English teacher and give her a story.
I love you more than anything.